I was driving Ava home the other day after Chris and I had dinner with her. She was in her car seat all secure and happy. I try to keep an eye on her with my vanity mirror on my visor. So there she was just swaying to the music and watching everything, carefree and happy. I flashed back to when Caitlin was that young, not so hard to do since Ava looks an awful lot like her, and remembered
how much I love her and how I wanted to protect her from anything that would be harmful and give her a better life. I wanted to be the best Dad ever and lavish this child with gifts of great magnitude and wisdom and a fairy tale story of a life.
Then Madison came along and I had those very feelings again with her, I had such great dreams of giving everything I could to my kids. Any material thing and the wisdom thing again with a strong sense of self and family. Solidly cemented, grounded and focused on attaining greatness in life, all of those things that I managed to screw up in my life, I wanted for them. I don't know how successful I was, and that won't really be known as life evolves and takes it's twist and turns constantly challenging me and my work with my daughters. I love them more today than I did back when they were small, and that rush of emotion was what consumed me as I watched my grandchild so carefree and innocent.
To my girls, Caitlin, Madison, and Ava, I love you more than I can ever say or show you.
I actually wrote this some time back, quite a while back actually. I obviously did not publish it as I thought I had, So, here it is a couple of years later but the sentiment is still the same....... I Love My Kids and My Grandkids So Much!!!
